....life as me & u know it....

now that semester is over, I actually have time to write out my frustrations. oh lj, I must admit to your therapeutic effects.


all I can say is how much it bothers me that I have some crush on a guy I barely know.
I try to stop thinking about him, I really do, but just when I think I've busied myself to focus on something else, another DAMN thought creeps in! ugh, it's useless.
I hate how she has a better chance with him than I do.
it's a thorn in my side to see how I've tried to make attempts at getting to know him, but to no avail.
I think I think too much about all this, it's borderline obsession.
perhaps I just need to remind myself "no big deal," it is what it is.
I hate that in spite of other guys coming my way, I still think of him, but why?
I'm tired of liking someone when it's doing more harm than good.
I hate being hung up on him like some entangled spider web.
I can only pray pray pray that this stupid emotional nonsense will end soon enough.
and if I think he's so fantastic, then I can only wonder of the other male possibilities out there, now THAT'S something worthy of healthy excitement!